On The Way To The Dumpster

I had totally lost my password and that combined to laziness= no posts! A whole lot happened and I didn't get to write. To resume it all, since the last post that was referring to an amazing time with that sweet boy Kevin, ending in the Dumpee's list, it didn't work out.

The amazing date I had with Kevin wasn't all good at first and then was wonderful, involving a walk in the park, staring at the stars and kissing...how romantic. Now switch over, different setting, movies at his place (or mama's), things going a little fast, him being a gentleman respecting my decision.

Being ADORABLE by correcting every little habits that drive me nuts, don't even have to say it twice. Any of my ex would've told me to quit bugging with stupid things. Once again, AMAZING...although...oh well, I would've skipped the going to his room part altogether but I'm a big girl.

Fast forward last date...45 min. late is never good. An excuse like being all the way across town because you couldn't say no to a friend doesn't fly...I had left, not sure why I went back but anyways, movies again, his place, the room...definitely nothing with me still pissed. Even regressed!

And now well, it's simple. I need a man. Harsh but true, I don't see him as a man. Plus I realize I haven't heard from him in a couple of days; not that I care or I would've made the first step but still. The girl was pissed last time you had a date, get a clue. But no, like any typical guy he takes the easy way out and assumed I cooled off. I did but he's on the dumpee's list that's why.

I did learn something great though...I'm not giving up on sweet guys but they need a backbone because I can't see Kevin anymore if I were to, I'd make him my bitch and I don't need that. I need a MAN!!! LOL, ouch but yeah, I speak my mind...I'm lining up some more boys, Once I pick the worthy ones from the bunch, I'll give you the names and updates.

Comment Worthy

I'm making a post instead of putting it in my links because first, I didn't get to read the whole blog, just this one post and second, well, I want comments. I say check out the link to Sweet Guys Finish Last It's worth it.

As for "my" sweet guy, Kevin...sparks are flying and I'm about to classify him : "too good to be true." Anyways, about how they say sweet (nice) guy's finish last well, I reply that the last one will eventually be first. I had a great time last night, but I'll leave that for tomorrow's post. ;)

Fooled a Lot More Than Twice

My day was horrible to say the least! For starters, Dylan did not apologize and didn't say anything! :( Ok, to make a long story short since last November we're suppose to have a small road trip listening to the new album of our favorite band. Things are going pretty good with Kevin so far but yet I still had to explore the Dylan situation and maybe get closure.

I offered to take advantage of my vacations to go and no news so I asked him. He offered Thursday but around 10-11pm. Now my friend's Kelly and Kim had their 2 cents but it pretty much came to the same...Too late and he's expecting more than a lil' road trip.

I've never had sex with him...He had an amazing chance in February but kinda turned it down. I'm left to wonder. Online he's constantly flirting, when we meet he's totally different. Anyways, Thursday he shows up online at 12 am and tells me he just arrived from a trip. No excuses besides that and no apologies.

I thought the offline messages I'd left would make him feel bad and apologies but nope. Instead he tells me he'd like to have dinner with me just minutes before 12pm. And then he's so dying of hunger can't wait. I live on the opposite side from he lives and he invites me for diner when he's dying of hunger. Needless to say, we didn't go.

Anyways Saturday= movie night at Kevin's place...Just hoping he's not ready for more yet. We've kissed and it was really cool. I'm hoping he doesn't want more action too soon. LOL, keep you posted.

Oh geez...

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

Shame on You if You Fool Me Once...

Shame on me if you fool me twice. Ever heard that one? I've been fooled more than twice by Dylan. His latest stunt is kinda complicated. I'll get to it later today when I'll probably have some news. One thing's for sure, he'll start to apologize. ;)

Books Are Brain Food...Pig Out!!!

Hihi, it's written on a poster I'd given to my sis who's now married been about a month. And my other sis has a living bf of maybe 5 years they have a son that will be 2 years old soon and they just bought a house. Out of 3 girls, I'm so far the loser or the one that scares the shit out of men. And yet at my sis' wedding I heard how people where praising my dad for having such beautiful and intelligent daughters. Alright, if we are so hot and have that rep how come I'm still single?

Oh, right, maybe because I broke an unwritten rule and dated white. More than once. But who cares, really? I don't. I've been with an Arab which I think almost gave a heart attack to some. I say whatever. I just want a guy who'll treat me right and I'll return the favor (lol, I can be a sweetheart at times).

So back to my post...books. I'm reading a couple...Just done with one but it' all french never been translated. They compare the last character of the author's to Sex and the City's Carrie Bradshaw mixed with Bridget Jones. I was a little disappointed but still laughed. Her first 3 novels where better. For those who can understand french the author is Isabelle Alexis. She'll make you want to start apero-debriefing nights. What's that? The girls meeting around a bottle of wine to dish out on the latest stupidity they came up with and trying to find solution quick!

Also reading: I Used To Miss Him but My Aim is Improving, Not Your Ordinary Breakup Survival Guide. Bought it for a friend, then had another friend buy it. Ok, didn't turn out extremely good for either one of them or sort of but they enjoyed the book a lot. Plus I'm desperate to get over Dylan. I'll do all it takes.

Another french book: "Petit guide de la femme seule. Comment apprivoiser(barré) trouver un homme." "Little Handbook of the Single Woman. How To Tame(crossed) Find a man." So far, so good. Along the lines of the book mentioned earlier.

And last but not least: It's Not You, It's Him The Zero-Tolerance Approach to Dating. By a Doctor to top it off. Dr. Georgia Witkin. Maybe I'm not so crazy after all.

So back to my books, I'll let you know if they were worthy and how my search for love is going. And yes, I know I eventually want everything to make sense but that's a different book and a different post. ;)

And Another One...

Ok, I'm starting a new blog. This whole new google thing kinda messed up my old blog because my old blog is now linked to my friend's fictional novel that I'm helping out with. Yup, for you who get this link from novel write, even with two people thinking up a story it ain't going nowhere. But I'm just a writer, not so much a treasure of ideas.

So this is a new start for me. I'll eventually dig to come up with the address from the last blog but it's more of the same...Can a messed up girl like me find love? That is pretty much the question I am asking to anyone who bothers to listen. I've been single for about 3 years and a half and been practicing celibacy for almost 2 of them. I'm going ridiculously nuts as if I wasn't to start with.

I'll make a long story short and introduce you to the men in my life (some aren't anymore and some aren't really but anyways). In a chronological order...

1st Dylan: First real love. Still intense to this very day, still destructive and hurtful. Been over for almost 7 years. Has a tendency of popping up when I'm ready to move on. I think he has an amazing sixth sense when it comes to me and making my life miserable but I can't let him go...EXTREMELY IMMATURE but oh so charming and sexy...to me that is.

2nd Kevin: Hmmm...just met on the net...Well just me for real actually, talked online for a couple of months I think. Just kissed the other day. Likes to speak his mind and be straightforward like me, or so he says. Takes criticism like a man so far. :) Kinda interesting but I'm good at finding something wrong with every boy. I'll get back to him.

3rd Edouard: Sexy, sexy boy. Met online, never in person and I'm not interested. Just have to find a way to tell him now. I thought he got the message since I was not returning his calls but he called back yesterday after about a week. Grrr...he won't like it too much if I'm straight up but that's me. I need an exit plan that's almost nice(I don't do nice). I'll probably write.

4th Lionel: Been out of my life for maybe a year or more...Good riddance. Ex who refused to respect the boundaries of a platonic relationship. I won't even go there. Hurt me really bad but not nearly as much as Dylan. Dunno why I bother mentioning Lionel. Chances I let him near my life again: slim to none.

Others are insignificant for now and I will mention them only if they become of interest. How many of you think I'm a bitch so far? Raise your hand up. Although, I can't see and couldn't care any less.

Well for those who really care about the 411, here's the old blog that turned personal around February 2005. My breakup! ;) http://new-improved.blogspot.com