Yikes

I haven't been here in a while. Life is crazy and hectic. I've been living with my boyfriend since july and we've had our shares of ups and downs. Work has been a little hellish but it's getting better.

Is it me or people are quite racist? Almost everyday at work I hear of people who are prejudiced and wow... of course that wouldn't be towards black people, they wouldn't dare but come on, it's mostly arabs, etc. Does that contribute to my feeling of wanting to run the hell out of here? I've seen a couple of posts for "dream jobs". Well, actually "dream company". Some posts will be taken out tomorrow... Dilemma...

So more of me... I've realized a few things regarding relationship after seeing how some of my friends are stuck in a mess. Passionate love, the destructive one... if you don't know about it yet, listen to Eminem's "Love The Way You Lie". I have a friend living it now.

It reminded me of Dylan and me and I realized something. I WILL know when she is done and she will as well. I was over Dylan after I sent him a mature message where I wasn't mad or hurt, mostly just tired and definitely ready to move on. Sure, I had turned him down months before and was already into Hank but I wasn't quite over him then.

I would always turn my back and go back or he'd come back. Passionate love knows no reason, you can't think straight. You know it's wrong and destructive but you keep coming back for more. Been there, done that. What have I learned? Not much but if you are in a relationship where it is on and off but mostly off after a horrible fight and then you run back into each other's arms for some more fighting soon after, well... welcome to passionate love.

It's like a drug you can't escape from, you are always back. No matter how hard you want to walk away, it's like a part of you dies when you're apart. You used to be strong, now you are weak. You used to be proud, no you would beg. Don't know how to help you snap out of it, but I can tell you when you'll be done.

The moment you will step away tired, without a fight, no screaming, just resignation. The moment your heart will be hurting but your mind will tell it: "It's gonna be alright, I love myself more" and you'll believe it. The moment your heart will probably shatter into pieces but your mind will be at ease. Then it'll be over and you can use the next few years to learn and heal.

It may be passionate and intoxicating but if it makes you act crazy and irrational, it's not the right kind of love. It's like any other drug, bad and destructive...

All of my love and hopes towards Haïti

I'm am by far not a religious person. At all. I am, at best agnostic. I'm trying to be a Buddhist. Anyhow, all this to explain why I'm not saying my prayers are with Haïti. I do not pray. The world is joined together in one quest that is helping those in need in Haïti.

I have family in Haïti, not a lot and we don't keep contact but still...It is painful to watch the news and it enrages me to watch the reporters going around "reporting" and "filming" instead of helping. I don't care to be informed, join in and help. Wish I was there, wish I could do more than the little amount of money I contributed.

So far, everyone I know is lucking and have had good news regarding their family, some are still waiting and my hopes are with them and everyone else affected by this tragedy. The whole world is mourning and crying as we are hoping for the best and that the dead count is low.

Hope your family and loved ones are safe and once again, all my love and hope is with you, them and everyone else in Haïti.

Avatar Racist?

So I gotta rant about this article

Yes, I'm back. I'll just start with this and then go on with a much better post that does not refer to a fictional movie especially considering the situation the world is in right now.

So what's with all those stupid blog, news editorial etc. calling the movie "Avatar", racist? Refering to whoever wrote this article (sorry, I didn't bother to look at his name. Did notice he was white), are you trying to get some credit and have people say you're not racist?

You're trying to say that Avatar's have a resemblance to people of African descent? I am from african descent so I'll bite. Sure they do. Sure a "white" man helps the people of Na'vi. I'll tell you why...That dumb ass or any other accusing the movie of being racist should have actually watched that movie. Did those people need saving before the white men came around? No that I see, they were happy and leading a peaceful life unknowing of how ugly the world can be.

Then the white men show up with his own agenda and not caring of who or what gets destroyed in the way. I guess, only a white man would know the extend of what damage they could do and warn the people. Because in the end they do save themselves with the help of some white people. One of which desperately wants to become one of them, compare it to the wiggers. All this to say that if this movie is racist in any way, it is towards the white men.

The white men who mess up what was once a beautiful world. The white men controlled by greed...Enough said, the whole racism topic was just dumb and they say black people are always the one playing that card. Don't defend an issue that doesn't need to be defended.