tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69537086598842133092011-07-31T04:59:17.826-04:00Messed up girl looking for lasting love and having a desire of finally making sense when ranting and just living! ;)Crazy Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14750427829172468142noreply@blogger.comBlogger331100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6953708659884213309.post-32141559271004888842011-03-15T00:59:00.004-04:002011-03-15T01:22:37.901-04:00

My 29th birthday ended about 1 hour ago and I'm SUPER stressed out. Why? Well, I lost my job about 2 weeks ago, which is kinda good since that place was killing me softly. I thought it was killing my relationship with Hank as well but as time goes by, I've wondering if he's just not ready at all...I sometimes believe he's just not a good boyfriend.If I take tonight, for example, now I'll start

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I haven't been here in a while. Live is crazy and hectic. I've been living with my boyfriend since july and we've had our shares of ups and downs. Work has been a little hellish but it's getting better.Is it me or people are quite racist? Almost everyday at work I hear of people who are prejudiced and wow... of course that wouldn't be towards black people, they wouldn't dare but come on, it's

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I'm am by far not a religious person. At all. I am, at best agnostic. I'm trying to be a Buddhist. Anyhow, all this to explain why I'm not saying my prayers are with Haïti. I do not pray. The world is joined together in one quest that is helping those in need in Haïti.I have family in Haïti, not a lot and we don't keep contact but still...It is painful to watch the news and it enrages me to

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So I gotta rant about this article Yes, I'm back. I'll just start with this and then go on with a much better post that does not refer to a fictional movie especially considering the situation the world is in right now.So what's with all those stupid blog, news editorial etc. calling the movie "Avatar", racist? Refering to whoever wrote this article (sorry, I didn't bother to look at his name.

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Wow, I haven't taken any time to update this blog. Why? Not so sure. Maybe because too much is happening and my brain can't seem to quite focus.I need therapy...yeah, I've been trying to avoid it but hell, I'm not sure how I can really. Things are not going too bad. I have a great boyfriend (minus all the fighting but it's good now); a great job; bright future.I'm still not sure what I want

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Roses are red,Violets are blue,Sugar is sweet;And so are youI don't think a day goes by that I don't think of how lucky I am to have found you. I am happy to have you in my life; I don't know what more I could ask for. We rarely argue but even when we do love is always stronger than pride and we always kiss and make up. I was secretely hoping the day would come when I'd meet the love of my life

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So I figured maybe I should write a post...Maybe it would help. I also figured maybe I should cry...Stop pretending to be so damn strong...Yesterday I cried...Didn't want Robert seeing me like this. It's just something he said...I am not perfect; far from it. I am a very insecure person at times because of my past and my constant fear to love. The day before yesterday, Rob and I had a talk.

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I won't modify the title of my blog. Sounds too weird without love. But I have found my love. :D Hank completes me, makes me feel whole. I can't believe any woman was crazy enough to let it go but apparently it happened. Lucky for me. Although he's suffered in the past and I think that is unfortunate. But he said something once...That all those bad relationships and the hurt that followed

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There comes a point in your life when you realizewho matters,who never did,who won't anymore...and who always will.So, don't worry about people from your past,there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.Don't know who that quote is from but anyways...This is now all I have to say about closure. I've tried, looked for it only to end up with more heartache.Was I looking for closure

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So, I was pretty confused after the episodes with Hank. This was not like me although I kind of knew why, it still didn't make 100% sense. I'd never ask him what he was looking for so I ended up assuming I was now stuck with a "friend with benefits". Mind you, I don't care for that very much, I don't think those relationships can really turn into something but that's me.I was in "issue

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Boy oh, boy...Last Saturday was something else. Blew me right out of my element. For a while there I was wondering what I had in mind. Haha, I'm keeping the best for last, like what this title means...Anyways, there was a long awaited party to celebrate Obama's victory although we're Canadian, it's a brother so it was a must.I'm not even sure where to start. There definitely was some drinking

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Oh wow! Too much is going on in my life and I should be in bed, I work tomorrow! I have a new job!!! An amazing one too. My second week already. To make it simple it's one of the four majors in the world in it's field. Office work was made for me. I'm a quick learner and I feel more than at ease there. It's like where I was always meant to be. The pay is great too...Lol, I'm waiting for

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I'm not dealing with an actually flood of water, it's more like a lot of job interviews; great opportunities! Now who would've thought...Things were going great before I resigned from my current job (just my full time position but still, I have payments to make!); then I hit a dry spell. I was almost freaking out. But now that I've actually sorted what I want, it's crazy, keeps on coming.

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Oh wow! Now something had to give! Lol, Hank and I have been text messaging all day. Where did that come from? That party that never was. So I was all ready for Saturday with a hot red top and you know...cleavage...Nadine and Stephanie were coming out to party. And if you wonder it's the name of my two girls! Lol a running gag with me and one of my girls, Kim.Explanation is simple. We

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Great! Now that was boring. Well half boring. Still job hunting at least I don't have to worry about money. I hope, I have been spending a lot. Anyhow, I saw Hank again. Turns out either name is good. That's it, LOL, his cousin Lee, who apparently thought I was pretty cute too seemed much more sweet and/or interested than him. But let me put some order in all this, you must be lost. So I

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Whoa! It's late or early depending on your point of view. I do have to be awake to babysit at 10AM tomorrow and I keep getting terrible headaches. I was hoping I could make 60,000$ a year with 2 jobs and of course forget the boyfriend but that might not be possible. The night job I was interested in has hours that would give me a possibility for a second job but it's have to be 4 days as well.

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Not that this is a lack of inspiration really but I'm gonna be "stealing" those drafts from my old blog "Hmmm...", finish them and post them here.  This one is from 2/26/2005Dreams...What are your dreams? Which mean the most to you? The ones when you're daydreaming wishing you were elsewhere? The ones you have when you're asleep at night? The ones you have about your future?What do you dream

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Alright, so it is passed midnight...But not so much...I was wondering if I exercised now if I could count it as exercising yesterday or if I lose a day and keep this as warming up week aka being lazy exercising only when I want to?So I saw a really nice show tonight Nebbia by Cirque Eloize at TNM. I LOVE circus shows, there's another one I ought to see. La Vie by Les 7 doigts de la main. The 7

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I exercised yesterday, now I have to find the motivation to do it today as well. I gotta lose some weight, geez, I have sooo many sexy clothes I want to fit it again. Lol, I was checking out old pictures with one of my girls the other day and she wanted one of my hot dresses a lil' too much. It still fits but would fit a whole nicer if I weighted 20 to 30 pounds less like I used to.A little

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Haha, I haven't been giving news about Robby even though I said I would. Or Hank however you want to call him. My friend kept investigating and told me he rarely has access to the net and still doesn't have his cell but he did get my number.Alright so...F.Y.I.: It's not something I asked for or really cared to know because well, frankly I figured he knew how to reach me if he cared. Just

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Am I in the middle of a crisis? Wouldn't even be a middle-age one, I'm only 26! So I'm reading this book by Sally Hogshead (I didn't make up her name!) Anyways, let's say, it's got me in a crazy spot right now and I'm not even done reading.I just quit my full time job. Kept it part-time, left with tears in my eyes; I'd been working there four years. But it was a dead-end job and I have a

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So here I am, crying...Not sure if it's because I'm sad, angry or happy. Heard from my long lost uncle. Okay, long lost is overkill but he's disappeared for almost 6-7 years. And today, he calls out of the blue.I try completing this blog and one my sisters shows up in my room still on the phone asking me for a pen and paper to write his e-mail address. Grrr...that pissed me off some more.

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Ouf, it's done...And I feel HORRIBLE!!! 75% bitch, could have been more but I was as nice as can be about it. What I think it made it worst; he never saw it coming. Me neither really, I was in the car on my way home and it stroked me I should do it, and fast. Like taking out a band aid. Only it's like taking it off and realizing the wound is looking kind of ugly underneath...That was hard.

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Haha, I'm going to insult all the lesbians in 5-4-3-2-1...but that's how I feel after a night with Kevin...yucky. Actually worst than I thought it would be. I should have read my blog before going to his place (oh no, sorry, his parent's place, again). Horrible and I mean horrible!!! And you know what? I'm sure lesbians are much better lovers than that. That was more like a reference to how

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Hihi, I can't seem to line up any real potential boys being that this was originally the plan I failed. Although I hadn't been working on it. So there's a new one maybe even more than one if I believe my sis who says I meet the man of my life everyday. LOL I admit I've overdone it lately. But for the one's I didn't get the digits, it doesn't count, it was just purely physical attraction. Except

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So I'm turning into a terrible person. I've known I wanted to dump Kevin for how long? And yet I'm still around...Worst if you look at the title. No it doesn't involve anything very naughty really but still with me it almost is. I'm leading on the poor boy because I'm not sure he could handle it.Although I secretly hope he takes it badly so that I can finally see him as a man. Yeah, I'm guilty

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I had totally lost my password and that combined to laziness= no posts! A whole lot happened and I didn't get to write. To resume it all, since the last post that was referring to an amazing time with that sweet boy Kevin, ending in the Dumpee's list, it didn't work out.The amazing date I had with Kevin wasn't all good at first and then was wonderful, involving a walk in the park, staring at

Crazy Mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14750427829172468142noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6953708659884213309.post-50340250123081468242008-08-04T04:19:00.000-04:002008-08-04T04:33:32.580-04:00

I'm making a post instead of putting it in my links because first, I didn't get to read the whole blog, just this one post and second, well, I want comments. I say check out the link to Sweet Guys Finish Last It's worth it. As for "my" sweet guy, Kevin...sparks are flying and I'm about to classify him : "too good to be true." Anyways, about how they say sweet (nice) guy's finish last well, I

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My day was horrible to say the least! For starters, Dylan did not apologize and didn't say anything! :( Ok, to make a long story short since last November we're suppose to have a small road trip listening to the new album of our favorite band. Things are going pretty good with Kevin so far but yet I still had to explore the Dylan situation and maybe get closure.I offered to take advantage of

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DisorderRatingParanoid:ModerateSchizoid:HighSchizotypal:Very HighAntisocial:LowBorderline:LowHistrionic:LowNarcissistic:ModerateAvoidant:HighDependent:HighObsessive-Compulsive:High-- Personality Disorder Test ---- Personality Disorder Information --

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Shame on me if you fool me twice. Ever heard that one? I've been fooled more than twice by Dylan. His latest stunt is kinda complicated. I'll get to it later today when I'll probably have some news. One thing's for sure, he'll start to apologize. ;)

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Hihi, it's written on a poster I'd given to my sis who's now married been about a month. And my other sis has a living bf of maybe 5 years they have a son that will be 2 years old soon and they just bought a house. Out of 3 girls, I'm so far the loser or the one that scares the shit out of men. And yet at my sis' wedding I heard how people where praising my dad for having such beautiful and

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Ok, I'm starting a new blog. This whole new google thing kinda messed up my old blog because my old blog is now linked to my friend's fictional novel that I'm helping out with. Yup, for you who get this link from novel write, even with two people thinking up a story it ain't going nowhere. But I'm just a writer, not so much a treasure of ideas.So this is a new start for me. I'll eventually

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